My Interview Experience & Tips (ecewahhh!)

remember i told you imma share about my interview experience kalau rajin? i kind of now makanya marilahhh. :D PANJANG NIIII DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOUUU!

as some of you might already know, dekat current company aku in charge the whole recruitment process from a-z; everything. kiranya aku tau setiap seorang yang masuk company aku kerja sekarang ni simply because i process their application dan aku prepare personal file diorang. tetapi untuk interview this time the future company nak cari staff for payroll team. makanya time dia call for phone interview tu aku takde mengharap sangat. aku cuma cakap i am willing to learn any spectrum other than recruitment as long as under HR department. hihi. the phone interview went for about half an hour or so. basically dia tanya apa aku buat sekarang, kenapa nak tukar kerja, berapa current salary dan berapa expected salary aku. simple and very straightforward. agak-agak lepas dia puas hati dengan jawapan dan explanation aku, dia cakap dia akan call for face to face interview if i were shortlisted; which luckily, i was. :D

simply put, the process went like this:

1) I applied through Jobstreet
2) Phone interview
3) Face to face interview
4) Reference check
5) Call to offer

Tips 1: Jobstreet

a) PITCH! jangan malas. tak kisahlah 10 kali pitch 1 je yang lekat pun, PITCH! tunjuk effort sikit lah nak cari kerja tu. jangan pitch mengarut, bagitau kenapa you think you are suitable for that advertised position.
b) resume tu update lah sikit and make sure it is customised. jangan pukul rata nak apply kat bank, kat oil & gas, hotel line semuaaaaaa pakai general resume yang sama. dan walaupun semua details dah ada dalam resume, for jobstreet punya resume pun isi jugak! malas tu jangan tunjuk sangat, recruiter tau. ;) oh dan save lah in pdf. nampak kemas dan format tak lari.
c) make sure pahamkan job scope dia betul-betul. jangan nanti bila interviewer tanya, terbangang-bangang.

Tips 2: Phone Interview

i am not good at this, percayalahhh! tapi di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan. try untuk convince the caller yang you memang betul-betul nak kerja tu. aku jenis tak reti menipu secara spontan makanya aku terus terang aje; tapi walaupun terus terang never ever burukkan company yang kau bekerja atau pernah bekerja. jangan sesekali. soalan femes recruiter akan tanya adalah "why do you want to leave your current job?" prepare lah sikit template answer kalau rasa-rasa english tu so-so ke sebab 9/10 interview, mesti akan tanya soalan ni. soalan ni takde jawapan betul atau salah, ikut kesesuaian. macam aku, aku cakap sebab i have been working for this company over 3 and half years so i believe it is time to move on bla bla bla. tapi kalau kau baru kerja 6 bulan, jangan cakap camtu. menempah kegagalan namanya. dan aku jugak cakap because the company policy has changed; currently aku kena buat kerja untuk 2 company tapi my pay still sama. dan aku rasa voice tone pun kena betul. kau jangan bercakap nyenyenye lembik atau pun over excited sampai asyik potong cakap recruiter tu atau terlalu diam sampai orang tu rasa kau tak betul-betul interested. before you end the call, tunjuk sikit kau appreciate, cakap thank you and hope you get to the next interview.

baiklah sambung pengalaman pergi interview pula. lepas phone interview tu, dalam the same week dia call sekali lagi untuk set interview appointment. aku prefer diorang send by email and usually most companies do tapi kalau diorang tak email, you call and ask them to email you. senang nak refer, jangan pakai cakap mulut je. bila diorang email je aku interview details, papppp 172 kali aku baca email tu nak pahamkan dan takut ada benda penting tertinggal. benda wajib kau harus buat ialah reply. walaupun dah confirm through phone, reply jelaaa unless dia tulis kat email tu do not reply to this email gitu. so aku reply untuk confirm attendance dan aku tanya what are exactly the job responsibilities ( sebenarnya aku apply for recruitment  tapi diorang nak offer payroll). the recruiter did not reply me butttt she took note lah sebab time aku interview tu the interviewer siap cakap "SO YOU ASKED ABOUT THE ROLES AND RESPONSIBILITIES OF THIS JOB?" lalu dia terangkan dengan panjang lebar time interview. :D kenapa aku tanya? sebab aku nak study lololol aku kan takde background payroll. effort katewnyewww. kalau rajin gini time study dulu mungkin dah pakai selempang pink time convo. huahuahuaa.

certain companies dia terus attach job application form sekali kat email so kau kena print, isi dan bawak time interview - which is preferred sebab senang kau boleh tulis sambil baring kat rumah, boleh susun-susun segala document yang dia mintak basically boleh prepare elok-elok lah. it's a 4 pages form guys! dan siap ada essay miahahaha tapi column dia pendek jelaaa dalam half page gitu. essay dia tu dia tanya "what knowledge have you of 'the company name' and how was this obtained?" dan satu lagi, "how do you see yourself fitting into 'the company name' and what is your most likely contribution to 'the company name' within one year?" macam jawab exam guysss ahahaha. haaa kau jawab lah! sejujur-jujur dan sepandai-pandai tupai melompat. aku google je lepas tu tulis pakai ayat sendiri alaaa macam buat esaimen. :DDD

TIPS 3: Preparation for Interview

1)  make sure segalaaaa documents dia mintak tu kau ada dengan lengkap. dan disusun dengan baik. ini nampak simple ya, tapi i judge candidates when they come unprepared. bila kau mintak gambar, dia kata tak sempat amik. bila kau tanya photocopy ic dia kata alamak terlupa nak potostet. bila kau pulak yang kena tunggu dia susun-susun resume, certificates semua depan kau. usually aku susun job application form > resume > certificates (most recent kepada yang dah paling lama) > photocopy IC.
2) buat background study pasal company tu. lagi femes lagi banyak boleh korek. dan kalau ada nama interviewer tu, pergi google dan cari linkedin dia.
3) datang awal! rasa munafik pulak cakap pasal punctuality tapi opkosss itu perkara paling asas dalam hidup lol.

interview appointment aku pukul 4 pm tapi aku dah sampai pukul 3.10 pm macam tu sebab dia kata kena datang awal setengah jam, ada test. nebes ke tidakkk siap ada test?! makanya study lah seorang kak jah di pagi hari (nampak perangai last minute tu tak pernah hilang dalam hidup walaupun dah tua bangka?) tentang bagaimana nak kira OT dan sebagainya, just in case. hakhak. tapi rupanya tak payah test sebab i bukan apply kerja bahagian tax ke nak jadi auditor ke so relax-relax je. aku suka datang awal time interview sebab aku suka tengok office environment dan tengok sekeliling ada benda-benda aku boleh gunakan time interview nanti ke tidak. :D and i kind of impressed the HR there lah sebab sampai awal dan come well prepared katewnyewww. nampak macam well-organised bukan? nampak sahaja. bak kata xeera, kalau tak kenal nampak macam classy dan sophisticated cuma jangan kenal rapat sangat je dia akan jadi selekeh dan menyebalkan. kahkahkah. yang belakang tu i tambah.

Tips 4: Face to Face Interview

1) body language and posture. pastikan duduk tegak, sentiasa senyum, eye contact, tangan time jawab soalan tu tak payah mengibas-ngibas sangat, you know, just be as natural as you can be. kalau i interview orang aku suka tengok time dia nak pass kan resume dan certificates macam mana cara dia. kelam kabut? dah tersusun cantik elok? baru nak susun depan interviewer? 
2) honesty is the best policy, tapi jangan sampai burukkan your current/past employer. honesty kat sini means elakkan lah menipu. kalau dapat kerja based on menipu ni rasa-rasa perjalanan pekerjaan tu cerah ke? sooner or later orang akan tau jugak yang kita ni menipu. percayalahhh! kalau you tak tau jangan tipu kata you tau, you biasa buat, memang kat company lama you buat semua tu. jangan. aku time interview dia tanya pernah buat payroll tak ada pengalaman kira OT tak bla bla bla aku cakap takde. padahal sebenarnya ada cuma aku tak power dan aku buat sikit-sikit je. kalau aku, aku lebih suka orang ingat aku tak tau dan lepas tu bila masuk kerja dan kau boleh buat semua benda, orang surprised rather than kau cakap kau reti buat semua benda bila masuk kerja terbangang-bangang. sakit je hati nak mengajar kan? tapi kena bijak lahhh. jangan pulak semua benda kau kata kau tak tau dah tu buat apa dia nak amik kau kerja?
3) sama jugak macam tips kat atas, kalau rasa tak yakin dengan penguasaan bahasa inggeris korang, study lah sikit soalan-soalan famous time interview and then rangka jawapan sendiri. jawapan pikir awal-awal so nanti time interview takde lah kau pandang langit mengharapkan jawapan turun dalam bentuk snowflakes. 1 lagi, jangan overconfident sangat. tau kau kelulusan oversea lepas tu english kau memang kedebabom lalu kau poyo. jangan. selalunya orang poyo ni interviewer memang pangkah. sebab orang poyo 90% daripadanya memang pandai cakap je kerja hampeh.
4) the first 10 minutes of your interview is the most crucial part, NAIL THEM! percaya lahhh selalunya dalam first 10 minutes tu interviewer tu dah decide dia nak kau ke tak. the rest tu just untuk dia dapatkan more information pasal kau to convince management untuk ambik kau bekerja. selalunyalahhh. tak kata all the time. ;)

so dalam pukul 3.40 macam tu recruiter panggil aku sebab aku sampai awal kan so might as well start awal katanya. masuk meeting room dia rasa macam terpegun sebab besar dan lengkap jika dibandingkan dengan my current company at that time lololol. tak baik compare orang kata, tapi you can't help it??? then the recruiter offer nak minum apa-apa tak of course bila nebes tak rasa nak apa-apa guys! i mintak air suam je. dah lah time tu tak sihat. T___T sementara menunggu tu i susun dulu all my documents atas meja. belek-belek sikit kasi hilang nebes and after 10 minutes the senior manager came in. well-fitted dress, blazer and covered heels all in muted grey/black shades. i was wearing black top, black skirt and maroon heels. huahuahuaa. i just couldn't do all black or dark colours that's just not me? so warm, so humble, so friendly the interviewer was. rasa macam berborak aje, seriously! memula memang tersangat nervous tapi dah the interviewer tu relax je tanya macam berbual-bual lalu i pun terus hilang kenebesan dan menjadi diri sendiri (yang tak selekeh dan menyebalkan, jangan risau). basically dia tanya soalan tentang kenapa cari kerja lain? kenapa after more than 3 years baru cari kerja lain? apa benefits yang i dapat kat current company? apa yang i expect from the new job? would that be okay kalau what i am going to do is sooo much different that what i was doing at that time? pasal family background, my current hr team how big is the team? how do i handle difficult staff? what do i do when i get angry/upset? can i work in a team? bagi contoh when you have to disagree with the team and what is the justification? and then dia explain a lot like a lotttt pasal the job scopes, roles and responsibilities because i asked the recruiter in the email before. guys, if there is one thing i belajar tentang kerja sepanjang i menjadi dewasa ni, make sure you know your job scope very very very clearly! sebab nanti orang main campak aje kerja kat kau because you have no proper job scope.

the interview went so well and it was an hour session or so macam tu. aku keluar bilik interview rasa macam aaaa leganya macam jiwa tenang dan aman damai. and usually that's a good sign! always always trust your guts! lol. tapi there was one thing yang buat aku rasa macam tak selamat. the interviewer keeps mentioning pasal aku punya personality yang more to recruitment side rather than payroll side. paham kannnn? time interview tu waktu aku explain pasal diri sendiri bla bla bla dia siap cakap yes i can see you're good with people, you are good at communicating and i feel like you're made for recruitment. do you think you can fit into the payroll team? they're more reserved and maybe not as talkative and sometimes they are quiet. lepas tu dia keep on cakap benda yang sama lahhh. like payroll ni memang totally different dengan recruitment are you okay with that. guys, i kan desperate nak kerja lain mesti lah i cakap ok. lol. tapi tu jelahhh yang bug me so much. macam kalau aku tak dapat kerja ni most prolly because of my personality or the fact that i have zero experience in payroll. dua tu je kot.

my interview was on wednesday kan, friday evening macam tu dapat call from the manager herself pukul 6.50 pm time tu aku tengah melantak kat sushi king pitamsss. dia call just nak tanya is it okay untuk dia buat reference check dengan referees yang aku bagi tu. aku cakaplah ok je. my 2 referees were aniss and azrul lololol. then dia tanya if she can check with someone superior than me memandangkan both referees aku ada adalah sama level dengan aku. aku terus terang je cakap aku boleh bagi the number but problem is, they don't know i am looking for another job and going to interview, unless kalau aku confirm dapat the job takde masalah. what if kalau aku tak dapat kerja. gituhhhh. dia cakap dia understand so dia just go for these two referees je laaa. i lupa guys i have another one manager i worked really close with iaitu walter! he's good and open minded and i respect him a lot! patut letak nama dia. miahahaha.

on monday petang, dia call both aniss and azrul. lama pulak tuuuuuu. more than 15 mins each of them. tapi okay lah aku dah pesan awal-awal kat diorang this interviewer might call them soon. takde lah diorang terbangang-bangang terkejut kan. tapi both of them cakap rasa macam diorang pulak yang kena interview because this manager ni tanya macam-macam pasal aku. banyakkkk dan macam-macam.

on tuesday tu dia terus call to offer. alhamdulillahhh! kan aku cakap i don't mind untuk short notice. tapi dia cakap it's okay they can wait. so dia nak aku start in december so that i will have an ample time untuk tender and serve 1 month notice. oleh kerana i sukakan kepastian, haruslah i deal cakap kalau dia boleh siapkan my offer letter by the next day aku boleh datang untuk discuss and maybe sign the offer letter memandangkan aku cuti keesokkan harinya. sekalik dia tanya "by all means, you're not going for any other interview right?" dan dengan nebesnya i jawab tidak padahal sebenarnya iya guysss that prolly the one time i lied in this whole interview process LOLOLOL. takkan nak cakap memang pergi interview? takut lahhh. but to think of it now, patutnya cakap jelaaa mana lah tau dia nak nego gaji i kasi tinggi sikit miahahahah kau tamak kannn fasheeha orang tamak selalu rugi nasib baik tak tamakkk! dan the next day lepas i pergi another interview which i also got that job (say whattttt?! :D) aku pun pergi discuss offer letter. i dunno guys, my heart memang leaning towards this company.

i have always wanted to be in a corporate company, and i got it! one thing i learned from this whole situation i was in, i have to be careful of what i wish for sebab memang dapat guys. tuhan memang sayangkan i. semuaaaaaa yang i nak memang i dapat! sumpah tak tipu. it's just a matter of time lah. ada yang dapat cepat, ada yang dapat lambat. tapi memang dapat. alhamdulillah.

to those yang actively seeking for a job, my pray goes for you okay. semoga semua orang dapat apa yang diimpikan (yang baik-baik sahaja, awasss!). God knows better! kena ada usaha dan banyakkan berdoa, insyaAllah tuhan tolong.

Things Happened For All The Good Reasons

learned it the hard way, but there is always ALWAYS a hikmah behind it!

hai, lama tak bersua. nampak macam dah selamanya meninggalkan dunia blogging tetapi sebenarnya tidak. masih di sini masih hampir hari-hari bukak blogger dan cuba untuk menaip sesuatu tetapi seringkali tertangguh. sebab tahu, bila aku emotional selalunya nanti yang keluar adalah benda yang tak baik dan negatif dan who wants to read all those? i know i don't!

guys, in the past months i have been idled i was breaking down emotionally and mind you it's MAJOR! like so very close to depression if you need to imagine. i doubt people around me noticed but some of them actually did. tried my best to stay away from posting it up on my social medias but  i guess i slipped few times bukan sebab nak attention ke apa but you feel like you need to pour them out (i strongly disagree on the idea of oversharing on facebook, twitter, instagram though but sometimes you just can't helppp). sesiapa yang perasan tu, tahniah anda memang sharp ahahaha. sesiapa yang tak perasan tu pun tahniah juga kerana selamat daripada tergolong daripada orang yang terpaksa rela membaca benda-benda negatif online.

i won't go into details tentang the main reason i broke down tetapi basically ianya comprises a lot of things happening to me at once di tempat kerja. unlike relationship problem ke friendship ke family issue ke, work related problem ni aku susah sikit nak handle simply sebab they take up so many hours in my daily life so there is no escape. it started backkk in may sebenarnya but i kept it inside sebab aku syak aku boleh handle everything but things kept piling up dan kemuncaknya lepas raya. (my last post pun pasal raya kalau tak caya sila scroll bawah lol)

macam mana aku tau aku stress melampau?

1) aku mula rasa tak syok pergi kerja. tiap-tiap pagi bangun benda first aku buat adalah termenung memikirkan soal kerja.

2) tidur malam start terganggu. aku kerapkali terbangun tidur tengah pagi dan asal bangun je check time dan pikir "dah nak kena pergi kerja ke?"

3) migraine melampau denyut-denyut kepala rasa nak pecah, dada rasa macam nak meletup dan aku selalu rasa sedihhh je tak tak tau sedih pasal apa tapi memang sedih lahhh. rasa homesick but i was at home??? jalan kadang rasa macam tak pijak tanah.

tetapi yang kelakarnya i look all fine outside macam takde apa. i can still gelak buat lawak cakap banyak semua tu still boleh buat lagi. so i thought i was under control. macam ahhhh this phase, it shall pass. it will pass. so i ignored the feeling. benda ni macam berlaku tanpa sedar macam eh tetiba hari berganti hari minggu berganti minggu dan the workload kat office kept coming in dan workload tu sumpah tak kisah but of course i didn't get the support i deserve because i seemed to be handling it all good, i didn't whine at office, i didn't complain even though i barely had time to lunch, i stayed back everyday i was all over the places everyday walked to klcc and back again every single day. guys, it was a fucking one man show.

dan aku sedar i was slowly losing myself. balik kerja aku terus memerap dalam bilik dan menangis. yes, menangis. dan kadang tu pukul 8 malam dah tidur and i slept through the night tau-tau aje bangun dah pukul 7 pagi and i have to get ready for work. i brought my work back home everyday. sampai satu tahap tu aku betul-betul dah tak tahan, aku cakap dengan ayah aku "ayah, boleh tak kak nak resign 24 hour notice?"  terkejut lah bang nan ahahaha tetiba anak dia cakap macam tu. this is 2008 all over again! ingat aku pernah cakap aku nak berhenti belajar kat bapak aku and he was sooo frustrated he stopped talking to me? GUYS, THIS IS FUCKING 2008 ALL OVER AGAIN I KID YOU NOT. of course being a typical asian parent that he is, dia tak kasi. so i talked to my mom pulak. hah toh puan sri! you guys know how she is! mak aku selambek cakap aku lembik benda sikittttt je nak give up. little did she know, i was breaking for months already at that time. both my parents initially memang menentang keras. dan come on, ini bukan zaman belasan tahun boleh selambek buat decision tanpa memikirkan family guys.

aku rasa akhirnya after weeks macam tu parents aku perasan aku tersangat lah stress. aku tiap-tiap hari suruh mak ayah aku doakan aku dapat kerja lain. time tu all i could think of is to quit. aku nak quit gila babeng rasa nak disappear rasa macam nak lari tak tau ke mana. satu hari tu balik je kerja aku terus baring dalam bilik pandang siling atas dan mak aku masuk bilik aku. dia tanya "kau stress sangat ke kak kerja?" guys, i cried like a baby. sambil baring sambil menangis gila babeng dan aku tak pernah nangis depan mak aku eh. paling tak pun selama ni leleh air mata je. ini nangis yang teresak-esak sampai mak aku tak tahu nak buat apa, dia keluar bilik. haha. dan aku sedar time tu, there's nothing anyone can do. kalau aku sendiri tak buat apa-apa, orang lain lagi lah tak boleh tolong.

so i took this matter into my hands and spoke to my boss. aku cakap aku tak mampu handle dah rasanya everything on my own. i need a back up. and i spoke to him TWICE. dan aku rasa ini lah saat paling kemuncaknya apabila boss aku tanya soalan "apa masalahnya? tell me what is your everyday work. apa yang fasha buat hari-hari, saya nak tau" bedebushhh bam prengggg ketangggg telinga keluar asap hidung keluar api guys! betapa marahnya aku time tu bila orang tanya aku apa kerja aku hari-hari. APA KERJA AKU HARI-HARI? dan hari tu buat pertama kalinya aku naik angin kat office. aku tinggikan suara, aku merengus aku peluk tubuh basically everything yang semua orang tahu aku takkan buat kat orang tua, i finally did. and the whole office was quiet. esok tu aku terus mc okay. migraine punya pasal. dan 1 office kecoh sebab come on guyssss i don't do mc??? that was my 2nd mc for this year ahahaha.

bermula dari hari tu (ecewah) aku betul-betul memang tak boleh contain kebengangan aku dah, aku start looking for a job vigorously kalau before this aku apply kat jobstreet je kali ni aku macam habis semua channel aku pergi aku apply habis-habisan aku siap tebalkan muka tanya semua orang ada kerja kosong tak kat company diorang aku nak deposit resume. knowing me, you know i don't do stuff like that! tapi aku tak peduli k. aku call semua orang tanya pasal kerja kosong. sementara itu, kerja masih seperti orang gila, walaupun aku marah because management never listens tapi aku still ada tanggungjawab dan aku tak boleh simply buat kerja aku sambil lewa sebab management maybe kena tempias sipi-sipi je tapi problemnya nanti kat orang lain, aku ni deal dengan segala jenis orang dannn kerja aku takde siapa tahu kecuali aku. even when i was on mc or leave aku still kena handle agents dan segala jenis orang. director himself pun text aku directly. sila lah imagine. aku ni pekerja cabuk je tau tapi pagi petang siang malam orang cari aku.

boleh dikatakan everyday is like a living hell untuk aku especially august dan september. aku cuba jugak lah positifkan diri tapi positivity only gets you so far, tak lama kemudian kau murung balik. aku ni selalunya kalau masalah-masalah besar jarang betul lah nak share dengan orang because i feel like hellooo orang lain lagi ada masalah besar? tapi time tu aku tak tahan sangat stress kerja aku pergi toilet call xeera dan menangis. dan aku rasa aku call nab juga. dan jet ada call aku? ke aku call jet tapi macam tu lah lebih kurang. tapi the sad feeling they did not simply go away. sakit dada mencucuk-cucuk. balik rumah aku sambung buat kerja kalau tak pun tidur dan esok tu kena mengadap kerja lagi kat office.

tekanan tu toksah cerita lah. menangis sudah. positifkan diri sudah. usaha keras sudah. cakap dengan parents sudah. cakap dengan boss pun sudah. tapi aku still pressure dan aku still sedih. hari-hari. aku rasa aku buat semuaaa tapi aku lupa nak mintak kat tuhan. doa memang doa tapi jenis doa dalam hati gitu-gitu lah. nak mintak dengan Allah pun aku malu. rasa macam layak ke aku nak mintak? jahat tak aku kalau aku cuma pandai mintak bila aku susah je? guys, ni nasihat aku. kita ni jangan sesekali doubt tentang betapa pemurahnya Allah. kita manusia lain. kalau kawan cari kita time susah je bukan main sedepa muncung kita mengata dia kat belakang. Allah? He is waiting for us to come back to Him. to ask Him whatever we want. nak rayu nak mintak semuaaaa tu kena mintak dengan Dia. silap aku, asyik lah suruh orang doakan aku tapi aku sendiri malu nak bersungguh-sungguh mintak kat Dia.

jadinya aku start cuba untuk tenangkan hati dengan bukak banyakkkk youtube videos The Merciful Servant, The Daily Reminder, Hamza Yusuf (favourite sebab penyampaian dia lembut aku suka dengar dia) bukan sebab apa, sebab nak pujuk hati. aku sedihhhh sangat dan walaupun toh puan sri banyak bagi ayat-ayat suruh aku baca semua tu entah lah somehow aku rasa macam aku nak dengar kata-kata pujukan pasal tuhan bukan something yang macam takpe sabar banyak-banyak nanti ada rezeki tu bla bla bla. aku tak nak dengar semua tu. dan oleh sebab sedih tu macam tak terkawal dahhh aku start berteleku lama lepas solat. sampai satu tahap time tengah solat aku nangis teresak-esak. dan you know, bangun malam untuk solat sunat. sebelum tidur aku bukak tafsir quran baca sampai lelap. tak payah tunggu berbulan tak payah tungguh berminggu aku buat macam tu seminggu je, aku rasa hati aku tenang. kerja masih stress tapi entahhhh rasa tersangat-sangat lega macam sebelum ni dada nak pecah kan, lepas-lepas bangun malam tu dada rasa lapang je. sumpah tak tipu!

guys, aku pernah ada terbaca somewhere kalau kita nak mintak lapangkan hati kita baca surah al-insyirah duhhh time sekolah dulu pun before exam kan cikgu suruh baca surah tu tapi lain okay bila kita baca dalam keadaan kita tahu maksud dan time sekolah dulu ahak ahak. jadi di setiap solat fardhu aku make sure aku akan baca surah al-insyirah. try lahhh memang lapang dada. then aku ada terbaca jugak untuk murah rezeki boleh baca surah al-waqiah. aku try tengok tafsir dia, pasal kiamat. walaupun memula rasa aik murah rezeki dan kiamat? tapi it's proven i tell you! aku bukan nak tunjuk pandai ke apa, sedar diri masih kosong bab-bab agama ni. tapi apa yang aku tau dan aku try berkesan, aku share. kita tak rugi share ilmu dengan orang semoga Allah luaskan lagi pengetahuan kita.

so basically dalam solat aku baca surah al-insyirah tanpa miss. dan lepas solat aku akan baca surah al-waqiah. aku tak buat tiap kali lepas solat pun, aku cuma buat bila aku ada masa panjang sikit. aku tak baca everyday tapi ya allah memang syukur murah rezeki sungguh. sebab surah al-waqiah ini untuk mengelak kefakiran (aku anggap murah rezeki lah ahahaha). surah dia ada 96 ayat tapi pendek-pendek je so senang. cuba lah! recommended by me. jangan lupa lepas baca selitkan doa untuk aku juga. hekhek. bila bercakap soal soal rezeki ni dan when it comes to Allah dan agama ni dia bukan segalanya literal. adakalanya kurniaan tuhan tu datang dalam bentuk yang tak nampak atau halusnya lah hai kita tak perasan tapi dalam kes aku alhamdulillah jelas terang cepat sungguh doa aku diperkenankan. syukurrrr! adakah iols sebaris wali songo? ok gurau jeeeee SEDAR DIRI.

oleh kerana aku kan stress pasal kerja makanya mostly doa aku banyak kepada semoga ada jalan yang terbuka untuk aku keluar dari belenggu kerja aku sekarang. dan apa pun jalan yang tuhan tunjukkan tu aku redha. kalau tempat kerja aku sekarang ni adalah yang terbaik untuk aku, permudahkan segala urusan harian aku. kalau ada rezeki aku di tempat lain, yang lebih baik aku mintak tuhan tolong bukakkan seluas-luasnya jalan untuk aku. ini tips yang aku selalu bagi kat kawan-kawan aku dan yang aku amalkan juga, bila kita berdoa mintak apa-apa kat tuhan selalu lah doa dengan khusus. contohnya: nak murah rezeki? rezeki apa? mintak dengan khusus. dan lepas kita mintak apa yang kita nak, kita tambah doa jika apa yang kita mintak tu bukan yang terbaik untuk kita, mintak Allah gantikan dengan sesuatu yang Dia lebih tau, baik untuk kita. ok? senang paham bukan?

aku tak payah tunggu lama, aku rasa aku start amalkan doa bersungguh-sungguh ni dalam bulan 9 macam tu tup tup tengah bulan 10 aku dipanggil untuk interview. guys, dari awal tahun on and off aku apply kerja kat jobstreet haram ada seketul pun yang lekat panggil untuk interview okay. tiba-tiba this time panggil. dan yang tak menahan tu, bukan company biasa-biasa, memang international company yang kalau ikut hati aku tak layaknya rasaaaa nak pergi interview pun! dapat call at first, so phone interview lah dalam half an hour macam tu. dia kata kalau shortlisted baru dia call untuk face to face interview. aku tak menaruh harapan sangat sebab dia cari untuk jawatan yang aku takde pengalaman dalam spectrum tu. tapi 2-3 hari lepas tu dia call balik invite untuk interview. syukran ya robbbbbb! happy lah kakak walaupun nebes. dan ingatkan kegembiraan sampai di situ sahaja, sekalikkk dapat another panggilan interview untuk another company. dalam minggu yang sama.

aku pergi dua-dua interview tu. 1 result dah keluar 1 lagi aku baru je interview rabu lepas. the first interview tu aku attend on the 19th oct rabu - nanti dalam post lain aku cerita pasal pengalaman interview tu k? (kalau rajin lololol which 99% of the time, aku adalah pemalas), hari jumaat 21hb tu diorang call tanya boleh tak nak buat background checking. then next week isnin 24hb dia call 2 orang colleagues aku yang aku buat sebagai reference. yes dia call dedua dan dah macam kena interview banyak nau soalan kawan-kawan aku kena jawab. 25hb selasa aku receive call yang bahawasanya aku dapat the job! oleh kerana rabu 26th tu aku ada another interview, aku mintak this first company ni sediakan dulu offer letter aku nak discuss kalau okay semua then aku accept. guys guys, dia terus siapkan offer letter aku on the 25th itself dan call petang pukul 7 camtu cakap letter aku dah siap esok boleh datang. esok tu sebelah pagi aku pergi 2nd interview dan mungkin tuhan nak permudahkan jalan aku, after the interview tu aku terus rasa macam i don't want that job (kalau selected lahhh) sebab it's a contract position dannn kerjanya adalah sebagai mass recruiter. MASS. sebelum aku pergi interview tu aku dah berdoa dah kalau 2nd company ni tertulis untuk aku, mohon beri petunjuk. haaa tak payah tunggu lama (geng wali songo kannnn) memang lepas tu terus rasa okay i want the 1st company yang dah offer aku tu. so petang tu aku pergi terus discuss dan sign offer letter right there and then.

amagad guysssss i'm sooo seksaited bakal beralih company! i know i deserve whatever God has planned for me and i know this is all for the best. alhamdulillah. i don't have to wait for long untuk ditunjukkan jalan dan hikmah dan antara hikmah sebalik kestressan dan kemurungan tahap hampir masuk wad gila itu adalah:

1) rasa lebih dekat dengan tuhan ecewahhhhhhhhhh. solat sunat helps. baca al-quran helps. memang boleh tenangkan hati.

2) i became more determined untuk cari kerja lain. aku ni jenis kalau things are okay aku takkan ada initiative nak cari kerja lain ke nak improve diri ke apa ke. oleh kerana aku stress tehruk, aku jadi motivated untuk escape dari belenggu hidup penuh kestressan aku sekarang.

3) the company i am about to join ni is one of the Big 4! like helloooo who would have thought kan? siapa lah aku? aku selalu rasa aku ni biasa-biasa aje. dan i hate interviews! (suka interview orang tapi kalau diri sendiri nak attend interview tu takutnya ya allah sebab tauuuu aku tak pandai dan i always feel like orang susah nak suka aku on first impression)

4) God's help is only a prayer away! doa lahhhhhh Allah pasti tolong. doa bersungguh-sungguh. dan bukan tuhan aje, kawan-kawan pun akan tolong dengan syarat, kita mintak tolong. aku ada banyak kawan yang super comel semangat nak tolong aku. keep on updating aku pasal kerja kosong lah, yang offer nak tolong pass kan resume lah. ehhh ramai! alhamdulillah.

5) it somehow has gained me confidence. yang sebenarnya i'm tougher than what i give myself credit for.

alhamdulillah. :')





ni versi yang panjang, ada versi pendek-pendek. aku suka Hamza Yusuf nanti ada masa korang try tengok and dengar talk dia. lembut jeee memang rasa terpujuk hati. hihihi.

27 - Of Taking Chances

i turned 27 last tuesday. my favourite number.

so instead of rambling aimlessly today, imma go a tad bit differently than i usually do - imma go deeper on how i feel and think about turning 27 - and few other things related to it.

looking back to all the years i have been through, i regret nothing that i have ever said and done but rather - those i didn't.

do i wish my life turns out differently than it does now? NO.

do i love what i have become today? YES.

am i proud of myself, of what i have achieved so far? YES and NO.

if i ever got a chance to change ONE thing in my past life would i want to change anything? YES.

guys, the only thing i regret in my life is the chances i didn't take when i had the opportunity to do so last time.

i wish i was braver and more confident. i wish i didn't say no as much.

you see, i made mistakes. i still do. but mistakes are what makes me, me.

i was offered a business admin course in shah alam but i chose science instead. did i ever regret choosing science course? went to samarahan? sucked at all my core subjects back in sarawak? NO. because i experienced a lot from there. i met my lifetime best friends there. i got to know all kinds of people. i learned my own strengths when i hit rock bottom. those were all golden experiences i wouldn't trade for life.

if i didn't suck at 19, i wouldn't have met another set of best friends back in merbok. guys, when i first stepped my foot in kedah land, i hate every bit of it. i hate their food, i hate their slang, i hate their super hot weather, i hate their system (merbok is much more stricter than samarahan, i can wear short sleeves no problem in samarahan but my baju kurung is too revealing to mak guard merbok). i wish i was in samarahan. i took public admin because i wanted to come back to sarawak. kedah was my last choice. heck, it was not even on the list! but i had no other option, so what i did was focus on my studies.

i had let my parents down before, sure i wouldn't want to let it happen the second time. so during my first semester, i was more driven. i remembered my first ever business maths quiz (after sarawak) where i got only 9.5/15. i went back to hostel with shivers - couldn't even sleep that night thinking what if i fail the subject? cried a little, even. (lol it was just a quiz but i was so upset with myself!) well basically my first semester in kedah was all about reclaiming my parents' trust. of course towards the end of the semester i kinda played a lot haha but thank god, my result was all good. got my JPA scholarship, pointer went down a bit but after third semester, i was offered a fast track programme -  and went straight to pursue my bachelor degree in shah alam.

let me clarify one thing here, i hated merbok at first but over the course of one year and a half, i grew liking it each day. few of the people, lecturers, my subject of course, their dewan makan's nasi goreng kampung (omg loveddd it!), couldn't remember the restaurant's name anymore but the one with the green wall in sungai petani that sells cheap western food?

have i not made any of the decisions above, i wouldn't be where i am now. and for that, i thank god.

but there were few things i didn't do in the past that sometimes kept me awake in the middle of the night thinking 'what if i ever did that? what if i took chances instead of simply said no?' those things, at times, they haunt me.

i wish i was confident enough to take chances.

back in shah alam doing my degree, i was approached not once not twice to try for a lifeguard post but i rejected. why? because i think there were a lot of people who are better at swimming.

back in merbok, i was approached by one of the lecturers to be a model to represent my uni for some batik competition - uitm wide. i didn't go for the selection because i think there were so many girls who are prettier and leaner than me - who would do a whole lot good job than me in modelling.

back in uni times, i was asked a few times to join english/malay debate, other competitions but i said no. why? because i feel like there were a lot more people whose english and malay are good. there were a lot more who can represent their faculty in SAF.

man, little did i know that it is not all about winning, it's about trying (and having fun while at it). if you try and suck at it, just laugh it off because i bet none of them will even remember that after few years. but you will though, and you will be glad that you chose to try.

i wish i was more open to ahem getting to know men. i had my chances last time but of course i was skeptic. i could just go for a casual hang out with them, but nopeee if i didn't like you well enough i'd say no. it was just a drink but still no, because i hate being seen with different multiple guys on different occasions. i was uptight, and that's dumb. girls, as long as you know how to take care of yourselves, when guys ask you out, by all means, you say yes. you don't have to like them back - you don't owe them that. just go out and experience.

to name a few - but you get my point, yes? you see, in life, there will be a lot more people who are better than you at something. there will be dozen of thousands ladies out there who are prettier than you. there will always be. but who cares? i know now i shouldn't. we live for ourselves, we set our own benchmark. stop thinking it's all about competition and being the best. and please please please, don't ever see yourself any less of a value you already are. if you look down at your own self, people will do the same to you. okay?

mannn, if only i ever got a chance to turn back time - these are all the kind of things i wish i'd do differently. but you know, i couldn't. so young girls out there, take an advice from this some middle aged woman (lol 27 makes you think you're old) you barely know - TAKE CHANCES.

27 and let this be my stepping point at being more confident and taking more opportunity that comes visit. it is never too old to start over. and i am going to start today.

you gotta love yourself and your life above anything else. because if you love yourself enough, nothing can bring you down. imagine being indestructible, well that could be you. that could be me. and that could be us.

confidence - that's the key.

here to turning 27 (my favourite numberrrr! didn't i tell you this enoughhh?!) and becoming the new me - the smarter, the sexier (whatever sexy means to you), the prettier (inside and out), the stronger, the kinder. insyaAllah.

happy birthday to me!

Saturday Rant

Ya Allah.. rant lagi! haha! don't worry my life is not that boring, it's just that i find it therapeutic to rant.. here! hehe.

who works today raise your hand up in the air! up high! high five! *nangis*

begini lah hidup orang yang tiada berkampung, harus lah mengalah apabila colleagues yang lainnya nak balik kampung. makanya, hari ini cuma lah aku dan 2 orang dari accounts department aje yang bekerja dalam general admin office. office sebelah iols tak tau! tapi tadi pergi usya line kejap, nampak gayanya GM kerja (walaupun GM kerja harus lah seorang Fasheeha masih curik-curik pergi beli breakfast kat mcd). he's in another office he won't know! (unless if you guys tell them.. because i only tell this little secret to you..)

next week is gonna be a very very hectic week! i am off on monday but the next three days will be H to the E to the double L! tapi takpe, busy is good. busy buat iols rasa macam duit gaji tu berkat sesangat auw refer balik pada perenggan sebelum ini di mana seorang Fasheeha mencuri waktu kerja pergi tapau mekdi dan kemudiannya makan di dalam opis like nobody's business. pfttt.

hari ni mari lah kita rant pasal indecisive bitches around kita yang menyakitkan hati.

pernah ke tidak korang berhadapan dengan manusia yang dia pon tak tahu apa yang dia nak? aku boleh tolerate orang yang tak tahu life goals dia, yang tak pasti dia nak jadi surirumah ataupun pekerja opis 8 to 5 selepas kahwin, yang masih memikirkan sama ada dia nak teruskan abusive relationship dia dengan boyfriend of 5 years dia ke tak - pendek kata all the life decisions yang you rasa you need to think it through because one way or another it will affect the rest of your life. it is okay! it is fine!

tetapi..

i cannot tolerate those indecisive bitches yang nak order makan kat kaunter mekdi pun amik masa 72 jam, yang dalam kepala dia sentiasa contemplate on petty things, yang semua benda dia nak orang decide kan untuk dia - bitch, what are you? 12?! ain't nobody got time for that! (that's why i hate overly feminine girls, they tend to be indecisive!)

haih kalau semua benda nak suruh orang lain tolong pikirkan untuk kau, lebih baik jangan jadi manusia. lebih baik jadi kucing. kucing pun tau pilih nak makan apa okay?!

cakap pasal makan ni sensetip dia lebih sikit, ampunkan saya.

oh satu lagi, just nak bagitau aku dah beli the sims, finallyyyyyyyyyy! sebelum ni rasa macam erk tak payah lah beli benda-benda laghooo seperti ini namun siapa boleh tahan nafsu gaming kewanitaan iolsss, makanya harus lah beli juga! pergi tanya kat sungei wang dia cakap the sims 4 takde stock dan the sims 3 takde yang untuk mac. lagipun kalau ada, ianya adalah berbentuk dvd di mana laptop iols tiada dvd drive leulz. initially nak jugak try download pirate punya sims tetapi sebab bengap it, cuba-cuba tetap jugak tak menjadi lalu terlalu marah akhirnya impromptu decision terus beli the sims kat origin there and then. haha! ingatkan nak beli the sims 4, tapi dia baru release on mac last february so tak tau stable ke tidak kang dah beli sekalik banyak nau problemnya ada yang dapat complaint email berantai dari iols kang. lagi satu, harga dia adalah terlalu mahal kahkahkah 89.90 bukan duit malaysia. selepas convert it is close to 300 hengget i die! the sims 3 cuma lah 34.90 yang apabila convert dalam 100 hengget macam tu je. siap dapat 2 extra expansion lagikkk jadi lah. kedekut tapi nak main game. huahuahuaa. tau tak apa benda yang lebih menyakitkan hati? selepas seminggu aku beli the sims 3 tetiba origin ada sale dan the sims 4 cuma lah berharga 39.90 herghhhh! *tamparjiransebelah*

tak kisah lah yang itu. the damage's done. there's nothing i can do about it. yang penting skang hari-hari iols busy membina family bahagia. hari tuh dah buat 1 family tapi main halfway je sebab tetiba rasa macam tak nak anak banyak - time tu anak dah sampai 4 lepas tu 3 daripadanya hitam sebab bapaknya hitam T___T anak 4 sebab nak 1 lelaki 1 perempuan je tapi the first 3 kids adalah perempuan hanya selepas mencoba buat kali yang keempat keluar anak lelaki. hergh. tapi bapak dia gaji banyak tau walaupun hitam sebab dia adalah medical doctor dan emaknya adalah.. err lupa!

kali ni main memang dah tetapkan nak anak sorang je kalau boleh lelaki sebab nak teruskan legacy Al-Faliqh leulz alhamdulillah memang anak lelaki yang dinamakan Syed Emannuel Al-Faliqh. nampak kulit macam suam-suam kuku juga takpe lah iols memang suka lelaki hitam. hakhak. siapa nama bapaknya you ask? Syed Edzryzal Al-Faliqh. jangan lah tanya mana dapat nama tu sebab memang sentiasa bertukar-tukar tanpa alasan yang kukuh. asal ada nama kat kepala terus letak tiada kaitan antara yang hidup mau pon yang mati. yang penting, kena nama orang yang iols tak kenal. harommm sesekali letak nama yang dikenali contohnya Syed Hadzrin, Syed Engku Hilmi, Syed Faisal apatah lagi Syed Muhd Faiz euwwww itu semua nama kawan-kawan rapat (walaupun nama yang last tu bukan lah kawan rapat ahak ahak) rasa macam sumbang mahram dan jijik terutamanya apabila suruh skinny dip dalam swimming pool kahkahkah.

KORANG PAHAM KE TIDAK APA YANG AKU TENGAH CERITA NIH?

tak paham pon takpe, iols masih mahu cerita. hewhewhew.

Syed Edzryzal adalah tentera. kenapa tentera tak tau lah iols sengaja nak cuba benda baru tak pernah lagi main sims kasi dorang kerja under military career path. tapi gaji ciput hergh geram betul lepas tu seminggu kerja 3 kali je bila tah nak kaya. yang perempuannya kerja dalam music field so tak abis-abis kena bagi dia main guitar sekalik dia gorenggg haih macam jantan. T___T pon takleh nak kaya juga sebab siapa suruh beranak lambat cuti bersalin je dah 7 hari buang masa tak dapat nak naikkan pangkat dia. i'm thinking of having another baby, kalau boleh baby girl. tapi takot kang time pregnant sim wanita iols tetiba tua haaa pitams! sebab dorang dah hampir tua dah tu anak baru sekolah rendah. pfttt siapa suruh kahwin lambat. hekhek. lagi sadis apabila nak kan anak perempuan dapat anak lelaki. takde idea lagi dah ni nak letak nama anak lelaki apa! opkos kena urup E juga, iols anal bab-bab gini.

kalau anak perempuan nak letak nama Sharifah Esmeralda sebab arituh macam tertengok cite hunchback from notre dame! hakhak. nampak bukan betapa matangnya seorang Fasheeha? tapi malas lah nak amik risk nanti tunggu cucu jela letak nama tu. anak biar sorang je. ni skang nak kena pikir buat orang baru letak kat rumah lain nanti dia besar boleh kahwin kan dengan anak iols si Emannuel.

amacam? cukup saikosis tak? patut tak berhenti dulu sebelum di cop kurang siuman?

mungkin patut.

kbai!

balik karang iols akan pikir macam mana nak meluaskan legacy Al-Faliqh lagi. apa lagi nama anak lelaki mula pada urup E yang aku boleh letak ni? hmmm.

Interview

of all stages in securing a new job, i had to admit i hate the interview part the most. i can take exams (thousands of them no problem!), i can write essays (not good, but i can), but not interviews. it's too much pressure (and i'm not good at impressing people! how sad). so whenever i got a call for an interview, i get this not so nice adrenaline rush and it doesn't help that i hate NOT trying also, thinking that maybe (MAYBE!) this time it's actually my luck!

the last time i went to an interview was last year in november and fast forward to last month which also a month of november i got a call for another interview which (again!) happened to be the same interview i have been to, last year. how convenient! (not gonna tell you what interview it was in fear people will google about this pengalaman temuduga jawatan tenenenenettt and stumble across this blog hehe) but sure you can guess lah! it's a government interview whereby you gotta go through stages before getting a job.

it's a shame that last year i didn't share anything about it and when i tried to recall what were the questions asked during that interview, i can barely remember. so i'm taking this opportunity to write it down so i can try better next time (yes, i am that persevere haha sad).

okay few questions on last year's interview that i remember;

almost everything about agriculture, no joke.

1) berapa jelapang padi yang kita ada di malaysia
2) berapa peratus pengeluaran padi di malaysia dan adakah ianya cukup untuk kegunaan 1 malaysia
3) apakah nama badan di kelantan yang menguruskan hal ehwal pertanian di malaysia
4) 8 bidang tugas piiiiiiitiiiiiiiidiiiii (now you know! kahkahkah)
5) dasar ekonomi baru
6) berapa tangga gaji permulaan piiiiitiiiiiidiiiiii

and few more tetapi mostly memang agriculturish kinda questions yang i have a very minimal to zero knowledge about. hakhak. here's the thing with this job post tau, it's very general they can shoot you any questions from politics to economy to local government to international issues it could be anyyything. they didn't specify which ministry they're gonna throw you into so you gotta arm yourself with as much general knowledge as you can (which obviously i'm lacking at.. hehehe).

tapi alhamdulillah both my interviewers were very nice. no provocative questions, they even helped me with answers (diorang tanya, diorang jawab balik haha), the one from spa was very warm he smiled throughout the session and another one from JPA was a little bit serious. he asked me 1 question (only ONE!) and i failed to answer him hahaha nangis sekarang. his words;

"okay Cik Fasheeha, saya nampak dalam sijil SPM awak ni subjek Tasawwur Islam awak dapat A1. saya cuma nak tanya satu soalan je lepas ni saya pass kepada wakil spa ya, tasawwur tu apa? perkataan tasawwur tu maksud dia apa?

bye bye confidence level. bye bye selamanya.

guys, tasawwur islam is the only additional subject i took in because you knowww Amalina's kind of peer pressure that time. haha. i studied the subject with no teacher no nothing only one textbook! you think i would remember that? NO. i couldn't even remember what i had for dinner last night, FACT.

i didn't get the job, duhhh so obvious! hehe.

this year, i was called for an interview yet again for the same post. if you were to ask me, do i really want the job i would say yes in a heartbeat. i was among the lucky ones who passed the exam on the first try (it's purely a luck, nothing amazing jaw dropping using ilmu hitam here haha), can't cheat either because last year the exam was held in public school and all (this year was at your own convenient home, online exam that is), but as i said before when it comes to interviews the lucky charm just died on me nangis lagi.

i didn't have funny experience during the interview last year but my friend did. one of the questions asked was;

"berapa bidang tugas/kuasa piiiitiiiidiiii dan sebutkan kesemuanya"

he answered 6.

"are you sure? bukan 7 ke?" the interviewer trying to trick.

and he replied, "oh 7 lah tu. mungkin diorang baru tambah 1 lagi."

=__________=' kawan siapa lah tu. HAHA.

the answer is 8, guys.

okay moving on to this year's interview.

alhamdulillah once again, i got a very warm, nice and friendly interviewers. one Dato' from SPA and the other one En. Anuar from JPA. before the interview i prepared myself with last year's questions googling about tasawwur islam (just in case, haha), few things on agriculture (you know, once bitten twice shy i don't want banana to fruit two times), a little bit on GST (hate anything technical but i didn't get any choice, did i?), all those factual information nkra nkea gtp everything. but guys, i forgot my CV. i totally forgot that i didn't even glance at it.

you know what kind of questions i was asked?

nothing factual. nothing latest issue, nothing technical at all.

all questions were from my subject and thesis back when i was studying my bachelor degree. yeay me! *criesblood* didn't i tell you i have a very short memory span?

1) differences between strategic management and management
2) differences between strategic planning and planning
3) can you compare public & private sector?
4) do you think private sector is more efficient than public? and why is that so?
5) kalau private sector ada pekerja yang slow dan tak cekap, kita boleh simply buang diorang kerja it's called retrenchment. kalau public sector?
6) why can't we (government) simply retrench people? what is the term for that?
7) apa patut kita buat dengan pekerja-pekerja kerajaan yang slow dan tak efisien ni?
8) apa itu produktif?
9) kalau waktu kerja kita adalah 8 jam, tetapi kita mampu siapkan kerja kita dalam 4 jam je, adakah itu dikira produktif?
10) okay ceritakan sikit pasal thesis you.

each question ada cabang-cabang dia. like, every time i answered them, they came back with another question which is so phew *kesatpeluhdidahi* easy questions guyssss!!! but i prefer to write the answers down with examples and all and hand it over to them after 1 hour. haha!

my verdict?

LET'S TRY AGAIN NEXT YEAR. haha. (itu pun kalau lepas exam.....)

okay that was my experience.

sharing with you some of my friends'!

"berapa negeri yang ada dalam malaysia?

friend: 13.

"awak pasti? tu cuba awak kira belang-belang yang ada kat jalur gemilang kat dinding tu."

so he counted,

answer: 14

HAHAHA. (ini kawan yang sama yang jawab bidang tugas piiiitiiiiidiii ada 6 tu)

another question;

"nyatakan rukun negara yang ke empat"

friend: saya kena baca satu-satu encik, baru saya boleh jawab.

"okay. awak bacakan dari belakang. mula dari no 5 dulu."

friend: maaf encik, tak boleh, saya kena mula dari yang 1st jugak.

HAHAHA. (again, kawan yang sama yang jawab bidang tugas piiiitiiiiidiiii ada 6 dan yang kena kira berapa stripe yang ada kat jalur gemilang)

another friend of mine was asked;

1) rukun islam
2) rukun iman
3) rukun negara

all at once.

sounds easy but try during an interview you will find yourself stuttering and even mixing them all. why? because you were caught by surprise. who would thought in piiiitiiiidiiii's interview there will be that kind of questions kan? i know i wouldn't!

love the experience but hateee the nervousness that kicked in before the interview! i wish i was more relaxed, guys. maybe i can answer better. but the damage's done. leganya rasa! i have one more friend who's gonna sit for this interview next month! let's pray for her.

i don't know the actual number of candidate sitting for this interview this time, but they want only 300. 300! heard that 80k candidates were sitting for the online exam, and somebody might have said 8000 candidates were through to the next stage (but this one i'm not really sure). 8000 is a big number, 300 is not! hehe.

till then.

Roller Coaster March

this month has been a hell of roller coaster for me.

busy with capital B and U and S and Y, i kid you not!

almost everyday ada je plan after work and my weekends are well - everyone's weekend. i'm a very home person (if there is such a term hehehe) i like staying at home doing absolutely nothing just chill with myself. of course, i'm the most self-conceited slash obsessed slah fish (selfish btw, you DO get it kan?) person in the world i've ever known.

wish i could blog more, there are so many things i wanted to share but had no time to, no laptop oso. you prolly wouldn't believe me sebab i played this busy-no-time card way too often tetapi i have a proof okayyy and here it is;

7 unpublished entries. i don't totally neglect you, blog. i may be busy but i love pouring my heart out here. amboi, poyo.

so ijinin kak bedah laju-laju update bulan march punya aktiviti which if i had more time later, i'll blog about it in details. don't put your hope too high, kak bedah is busyyy dan by the time kak bedah sudah tidak sibuk lagi, cerita pun sudah basi. hmm. hehe.

1) my two sisters who decide to pop out in March, how convenient *rollseyes*

Xeera and Ira. celebrated both birthdays. Ira's with all the clans and Xeera's with only me and her.

a very quick one. distance what? pftttt johor and kl were just next to each other kan? it's funny how during our uni years i hated wearing anything black and white while she's the one with 239 black cardigans and now it's the opposite. she was wearing something bright (who the hell was she?!! i screamed to myself at that time), it's orange blouse omg that's not xeera that's just not her! and me, wearing something dull *coughs* lawyer-like *coughs* kind of kurung. seriously, what happened to both of us? missing each other so much that we literally switched souls ke macam mana ni?! btw, her birthday was on 13 March, it's not too late to wish her GO NOW. i need to write something about her. this one definitely needs a longggg post with a lot of pictures in it! later, insyaallah.

Ira's birthday was another whole lot different story that deserves one long post which i don't have time yet to write kakakaka. there was a surprise party for her it's sweet it's meaningful yada yada too bad i can't find the pictures in my phone (must have forgotten to save it from whatsapp group MY BAD!) so up above was the intimate dinner she had with her 8 years 8 months boyfriend, Alan on her birthday. they had lobsters whatever so pissed off why was i not even there pfttt whatever really whatever. oh dan rupanya ada sesuatu yang come. did you know time celebrate birthday ira tu tetiba ali datang dan cakap "kau tak tulis pon pasal birthday aku kat blog kau. hari-hari aku check tapi takde. birthday anan pon takde!" olololo comel walaupun part HARI-HARI AKU CHECK tu sounds a lil bit exaggerated tetapi i'd love to think he checks my blog daily. kuang kuang kuanggg bye.

2) weddings.

Anis Amira the primary school classmate.

hmmmm the problem with standing next to a beaut, you look so ugly duckling. haha.

Ieda and EG - both are my friends from different circles.

i have a picture of me standing in between the bride and groom just to piss them off tetapi they are good people they think it's completely okay omg whyyy?! tak jadi nak letak sebab tak memarahkan pon hmm. EG ni kawan time sekolah menengah. used to tease him a lot back in form 1 tapi dia memang jenis cool, sengih-sengih aje tetapi telinga merah. telinga merah tu tanda malu lettewwww. ieda pulak kawan time kat uitm sarawak - laptop mu laptop ku jua, bilik mu bilik ku jua. i installed games in her laptop pizza frenzy cake mania semuaaa tu and i got bored shortly after makanya ieda ni lah yang main sampai menang pftt. dan time tu kegilaan aku adalah lagu-lagu indon melly goeslow semua tuh makanya aku transfer semua lagu tu dalam laptop dia dan dia pon kebetulan suka juga makanya jadi lah laptop bersama tau tak time dia kahwin dia bukak lagu-lagu tu? they make a good sweet nice couple, so glad they end up together!

3) occasional casual dine outs

fiqsgastronomy with le close cousin, tya.

with my hommies, pishang-pishang sekalian.

 with the girlfriends, Vio and D.

look who decided to pay me a visit at work on friday (oh yesterday)

another outing with the same Mademoiselle.

oops busy fasheeha with the sloppiest ever eyebrows! haha.

Lola came for a visit all the way from setia city mall - no pictures of us pfttt vhatttt izzz dizzz nonzenzeee. of course when guest came to your place you gotta treat her something she likes. caramel macchiato. okay.

dinnerina with ballerinas.

the blue flowers decided to make an appearance to every picture of us. sigh that attention whore haih.


4) quick catchups

ha ha ha RUNNING EVENT. she must had knocked her head or something. nice try! BUT NO.

the brave bitch that dares to not text me first who does she think she is why do i have to text her first omg why is she trying to be invisible this bitch so pfttt.

aaaaa so a lot moreeee malas nak carik dalam phone!

5) sad news everywhere

apart of MH370 and the death sentence of ikhwanul muslimin, i have quite a rough month also.

Mr. Daddy was admitted due to early symptoms of stroke and a sky high blood pressure. nothing to worry here, Daddy is a lot better now. well, not actually but as long as he's not hospitalized and he's taking his medicine religiously, i'm more than happy already! was so glad i'm surrounded by concerned people who called and texted me but i was too busy to even properly reply. sorry! talked to xeera about this auwww man does she knowww how to comfort me! :') but i cried a lot that particular weekend it has been quite some time i didn't cry that much couldn't even remember if i ever cried that much before haha all is well now, i'm back at being the chirpy me.

my uncle was also admitted and warded due to breathing problem something that has to do with oxygen in but carbon dioxide can't out i dunno. my uncle was big before but stroke eats him up he's now half of his size (or maybe even quarter). so sadddd because i am close to him okayyy i spent most of my teenage years with my acu and paksu! babysit their twin sons, followed them everywhere (bowling, karaoke, snooker centre yes they're cool people), slept at their house.

6) the goodbyes

cherryn resigned last monday. one of the closest ones to me in the office. check out the huge bum of mine! god, those extra fleshes or fats whatever need to just poof and gone!

introducing you my ex boss (haha EX okayyy), the ever so fierce Noni! doesn't look so fierce here but wait until you hear she screams calling your name! cold feet. shivers. heart pumping so fast. face turning blue. the boss that once made me lose my sleep at night. haha. but also the same person who offered me to work in Jakarta.

aaaaaaa wish i can update more but i'm in the middle of something.

hope your month is much more fulfilling than mine!

till then.

:)

Last Week

i have one simple advice to those who are still studying;

cherish your student life (all the free times, no classes on weekends, classes cancelled, semester breaks, mid semester breaks) *why are you having so much holidays, btw?! sheeshhh so unproductive!*

because once you start working, you won't have all time to spare with friends, family and even your own self. *criesblood* come one, take it from me - a student then, a worker now. i have so much time back when i was studying especially during my final year. i still remember my final semester, i only had classes on mondays, tuesdays and wednesdays. my weekend was 4 days! god damn 4 days! i now have barely 2 days of weekend to spend because i am working on alternate saturdays. *where is my life calendar i want to turn it back to last year pfttt hehe*

okay back to now - the reality.

last week was a well spent weekend. i was off on saturday thank god so i can attend my friend's wedding, Qila.

i was with Nab all day attending wedding, karaoke-ing, coffee-ing, eating in, visiting kak jah and abe nan (my parents btw haha).

bumped into these 2 girls i studied with back in samarahan, Salsa and Yaya. hehe.

cochrane - bandar sri damansara - sg buloh - ampang - kg baru - cochrane - bandar sri damansara - cochrane.

how was that, baby? ;p reached home at 12++am , i was flat and i slept with my kurung on. (nothing fancy about it, i always sleep with my baju kurung on bahaha) can't believe i'm getting so makcik-makcik. twas only 12 am kottt, on saturday night pulak tu! muehehe.

the next day, it's a day spent with Ayu and Baby and their families pfttt. haha. both are married so basically if you want to spend time with them you HAVE to spend time with their husbands too. bahaha. thank god Apis and Zul were cool with it.  i think Adam was also fine with it. ;p

PLKN united Ayu and I. we were very mischievous back then always finding a way to skip classes and our morning exercise routine and even the evening roll call! haha. Baby (the free hair one) on the other hand was my primary schoolmate but we were never in the same class (i think!). she's Ayu's highschool best friend. look how fate plays its job so very well. it's a small world, indeed. ;)

and on Monday not sure if this can be categorized as last week or not (i know it's not but whatever ok), i met Xeera my best friend cum sister cum little joker cum best listener/advisor. too bad no pictures were taken because she has new best friend cum sister cum little joker cum best listener/advisor who is much way prettier than me she even put their picture together on bbm dp i mean WHAT IS THATTT pfttttttt tak nak kawan!

just in case you forgot how does she look *rollseyes* here i'm uploading our pictures together since i don't feel the need to keep it in my phone anymore #jealousyalert #sistersrivalry #she'snotgonnabeasfunasme #whateveriwillfindnewbestfriendsoon

she said sometimes when she misses me she will read my blog (indirectly saying that i never update anything about her, I KNOW) pfttt like that's gonna change the fact she's already found a new best friend pftt pfttt *showingmyrabbitteeth*

okay.

deleting all our pictures in my phone now.

BYE.

bahaha.

6 months

hi.

tomorrow marks my 6 months of being employed and earning my own money. auw.

:)

can't believe i have gone this far.

i mean while everyone is changing jobs and whatnots, i am staying and actually liking my job! hehe. alhamdulillah.

something to be grateful about, certainly.

okay, thinking of rewarding myself! (pampering self once in a while doesn't hurt right?)

my wishlist;

1) a new pair of shoes. (saw a Nine West heels, simple and decent, very me! i want it!)
2) Dior Addict 2. (light and innocently sexy perfume, one's true companion. hehe)
3) a purse. (kinda hooked to this one simple purse from Guess, but it's not necessity so i'm still deciding! ;p)

and of all three i've listed, i can only choose 1.

talking about not overpampering yourself! (and not burn a hole - maybe two in your pocket!)

which one you think i would actually pick?


















it's number 2 (I THINK!)! and it's the most expensive among all. pfttt. why can't perfumes be like rm34 per bottle, whyyy?!

haih.

i want a new phone too, one that i can take nice pictures with it, and post it somewhere and maybe read blogs and write one without hassle. ;)

a notebook would be good as well. given that i have none on me at the moment. i need to watch my weekly dose of vampire diaries damon and klaus have been complaining on how little time i have for them. and i kinda miss the sims. and my daily dose of laughter, runningman. :(((

i have endless wants it's killing me! pftttt hehe.

one at a time okay?

Self-Torture 2

so semalam i was kind of feeling guilty the entire night for having nasi - sambil tengok Transformers. bersalah dengan diri sendiri sebab sebenarnya tak lapar tapi paksa diri telan nasi jugak. haha. alaa, bukan lah paksa sangat, dia macam sambil tengok tv rasa boring pulak diam aje terpaksa melakukan aktiviti sampingan seperti - makan. ahem. kalau ikutkan sikit je pun aku makan. sikit lah daripada biasa dalam satu ketul nasi camtuh tapi rasa bersalah dia macamkan baru lepas makan satu periuk nasi occay. dan it doesn't help either that i was watching megan fox all hot and sexy and MENYAMPAHKAN - in a good way. ehek.

so what did i do?

terus tukar baju pakai seluar sukan favourite sejak berumur 18 ehem muat lagi ahem sebab seluar tu kan boleh mengembang menguncup kbai dan hugging tshirt. kenapa pakai yang hugging sebab lagi banyak lemak yang kita nampak lagi semangat untuk kita memulakan self-torture. selesai tukar baju, aku terus memulakan stretching kangkang sana kangkang sini feeling ahli gimnas. tapi aku takdelah tetiba naik gila memaksa diri ke apa. aku macam sambil tengok tv sambil gerak sikit-sikit. gittewww.

lepas tu rasa macam eh eh the key to fat burning is sweating. i need to sweat. like, really! so bangun dan memulakan lompat bintang. -_____-' rasanya last buat lompat bintang secara semangat adalah ketika di plkn dulu. bertahan lah tanpa henti sebanyak 20 kali. kahkahkah. lepas tu rasa macam eh eh jangan paksa diri nanti sakit kaki takleh pergi keje besok amboi tipunya. peluh occayyy. 20 iols bukan macam 20 chu olzzz, awas ya. korang kalau lompat bintang sekali lompat kira sekali kan? iols is not. aku punya kiraan linda jasmine sikit, dia 1-2-3-1, 1-2-3-2, 1-2-3-3,1-2-3-4. GITCHEWWW. kalau dihitung dihisab semula tu, dekat 50 tu jangan buat gilaaaa.

star jump sudah, stretching pun sudah. lepas tu terpikir oh sebenarnya aku gemuk air bukan gemuk lemak sebab badan aku lembik dan cara untuk hilangkan gemuk air adalah dengan minum air kosong banyak-banyak sebab badan kita tend tu retain water bila kita kurang minum air sebab dia ingatkan kita tak cukup air which is kita kena trick dia balik dengan minum air secukupnya. fenomena ini dinamakan water retention - kawan aku LUFTHANSA GUING bagitau. baiklah. tetiba jadi saiko pergi dapur amik satu botol besar air kosong dan minum. perlahan-lahan. pada pukul 11.30 tengah malam. kira bengap jugak lah tu sebab mana boleh minum air banyak-banyak sebelum tido nanti muka sembap esok paginya.

ingatkan kebengapan tu dah berakhir, rupa-rupanya gatal lagi kali ni buat jogging setempat pulak. serius rasa badan semalam sangat ringan ahem bukan sebab jogging setempat, tapi memang rasa ringan. kalau rasa berat kau ingat ahkak nak exercise? jangan harap. lepas dah jogging setempat rasa macam eh jogging setempat boring lalu jogging pula satu rumah. -_______- rasanya ini adalah jogging pertama dalam masa 4 bulan.

lepas dah buat perangai, macam biasa layan runningman dulu kat tv setiap jumaat channel 393 11.50 malam. habis runningman kononnya nak tidur, baring-baring dan rasa nak buang air kecil. oh yeahhhhh air mineral is doing its magicccc! pergi toilet dan tetanjat gegurl apabila seluar favourite iols telah pun berlubang di celah kangkang. OCCAYYYY. bukan lubang-lubang manja ok tapi adalah berlubang sebesar kepala sendiri. amboi ahli gimnas pun menangis kalau tengok ni.

i think that was the nature trying to tell me to;

GO EASY ON MYSELF.

kan?

and at this rate, i just pray hard this emotional instability would just go away. i don't know how much damage lagi yang aku nak buat pada diri sendiri. tapi i'm trying to channel it into something positive lah insyaallah.

mari kita tukarkan si dugong ini,

23 tahun

kepada yang less dugong,

20 tahun

alaaa sebenarnya yang 20 tahun pun gemuk jugak, tapi teknik penggambaran dan baju warna hitam tu penting. baby steps lah. mula-mula turun sampai ke umur 20 dulu. lepas tu kalau mampu turun lagi sampai ke umur 18. -_____- nak turun ke umur 20 tahun cerita dia kena shed 8-9 kgs okay. dan nak turun ke umur 18, kena shed lagiiii 10 kgs. hahahahaha bye! gambar umur 18 yang penuh takde. yang muka aje, aci tak?

18 tahun. ke awal 19 macam tu lah. 

HAHAHAHA orang asli mana tewwww rambut macam mi kolok tewwww. 

haaaa ini umur 23. selulit di peha dan tangan berbondong-bondong banyaknya. tapi tetappp rasa yang terpaling jelita di alam semesta pergi sunway lagoon pakai pendek-pendek. wakakakaka.

ini bulan 6 arituh. kembali bersopan dan ingat tuhan. tetibaaaa. makin gempal tapi macam biasa cuba sedaya upaya untuk NAMPAK kurus dalam gambar. nampak, fasheeha. nampakkkk kurus tu. *rollseyes*

okay this is getting embarrasing and intense and stressful all roll in one. 

TO EMOTIONAL STABILITYYYY EVERYONEEEE!