the remembrance

i guess i am so lucky to be granted with such a loving dad. i may not talk/share much about him but i love him to the core, i swear! hehe. i refrain myself from always sharing about him simply because whenever i talk about him i get so emotional that i look like an idiot tearing or sometimes even crying in front of the pc. i wrote about him before - a few times but i couldn't bring myself to post it. no good! but god, if only you know how much i love him and value him in my life!

this is random but i just wanna take this day - maybe half an hour or slightly lesser, maybe half an hour or more just to share with you things that i do/ever did with my dad that i want to remember not only today and tomorrow, but forever. and when things get rough one day, or when i ever thought of prioritizing someone/something before him (God forbids!), i could remember that i did write THIS once.

i want to remember everything about my dad. (okay this is only the beginning, hold your tears Fasheeha you barely write anything about him, just an introduction!)

i want to remember that we used to talking on the phone everyday (without a miss) when i was studying in sarawak, kedah and shah alam. it might be less than 30 seconds, but it's still a phone call and it's everyday! (and guys, this is how it should be when you treat your girl! istiqamah. hahaha)

i want to remember that my dad always puts family above everything - never complains.

i want to remember that my dad always tries to give his best to the family. working so hard everyday.

i want to remember the simple small talks we have everyday like "kak, camane keje tadi? ok?" or "tadi ayah pegi pomen anta kereta pergi tukar radio baru. best lah skang kalau nak bawak kereta sampai shah alam pun takde masalah dah" or even something that goes like "kak, tadi kelantan menang lawan atm. uuuu best gilaaa kelantan main tadi!"

i want to remember that dad used to bring me lunch when i worked at benefit 2 months back. everyday.

i want to remember that daddy still brings me lunch now, travelling from klcc to lot 10, 1 pm everyday. even called beforehand asking me what i want to have for lunch.

i want to remember that daddy picks me up everyday at work. by car and even sweeter by motorcycle at times (you know how jammed kl is at 6pm! especially around my workplace) yes aiyem a minah rempit now and i like it ahak ahak!

i want to remember that daddy used to "wake up call" me during my college years and still doing it now. i don't need alarm clock i have my dad! ;)

i want to remember the quality times we had together be it when watching football or cooking porridge or talking in the car. i want to remember every single moment with him.

i want to remember that we always share same preference when it comes to food. manis-manis dan pedas-pedas gilaaa! hahaha. dad even puts a pinch of sugar in his porridge and maggi!

i want to remember that my dad is a good listener and i can talk about almost anything with him - except love  (ahem!) that one i am so malu lahhh to share with him though i know he won't mind! let us leave that major tugas to my mom okay? ahaks!

i want to remember that every time i went home late, he will always be the one who waits for me just to remind me to lock the door properly.

i want to remember all his jokes and laughs.

i want to remember how handsome he is. i might be biased because he's my dad but those who have seen him said the same too. now you know where this handsome girl gets the look! *kibasbuludada*

i want to remember how i feel about him today. this moment. right at this second.

above all,

i want to remember how he will always be there for me whenever i need him. my superman. my dad. my best friend. and i should do the same too for him because i know i am his well-apparently-not-only-daughter-but-the-closest-one-to-him, his diligent listener, his football partner and his best friend too.

so, in the future whenever i am complaining about how hard to be the eldest in the family or how hard to please my parents can someone please shove this post to me? or print a hard copy lots of them and slap me with it real hard? please?

because sometimes i got too caught up with other things that i tend to overlook the little things. because sometimes i may take things for granted. because sometimes i can be forgetful.

remind me when i'm off track and deviating, will you?

i love you dad. and mom. and si temok sami cina sekarang dah botak.

i love you.